I am 20 and am tired of being controlled and having to deal with repeated attempts of being manipulated by my ignorant parents with their heads up their asses. I feel like they treat me like a german shepard and view me as non intelligent and unconfident but this is a resuly of them controlling me and bringing me down. My entj father and isfp mother have both had tough lives and its almost as if they take great pleasure in passing their misery onto me. I dont feel like this is a burden i should have to cary considering i have my own lifetime of pain and emotional damage.

In a seemingly open conversation with my isfp mother i decided to tell her that i was going on a date the following night.. i told her that her name was claire and she replied simply by saying in a very condescending and elitist tone "the black girl!???" (i am white) When i said yes she told me that her generation would view this very poorly. I later told her that this is the year 2007 and that her generation was sick and ignorant and that she needs to get her head out of her ass!!! But the point is that when she said that she crushed me on the inside because i thought she was certainly better and more understand to make that kind of judgement on her son. I felt hurt and ashamed because nothing is ever good enough for my parents ever. My older sister was incredibly overachieving and never recieved any praise from my father for her good grades ever. The two have them have also done a great deal of emotional damage to them and they have recovered greatly because they are incredibly strong.

They always find a self righteous way to bring things to agree with their point of view than explain why they are right and i am wrong, rather than trying to empathesize and work through the issue together they bark orders which they demand being followed. When there is such a dispute my father will use something and hold it over my head to control me and put me in line such as threating to kick me out of the house. He has at times dominated to so much in my life that he reduced me to nothing. I would like to here his side of the story if we were on a level playing field. I believe that i would have a hard time taking it easy on the man.

I know i am not a perfect human and i have also made bad decisions in my past. But i feel like a deserve to be treated better most of the time.

I am not feeling sorry for myself because i learned along time ago that is a waste of time. But this is tiresome and i am sick and tired of them stomping on my dreams and making me feel like i am nothing and a completely terrible human being (which they are probably unconcious of and is merely a side effect of their own incomplete lives and emotional damage) I have higher aspirations for myself and aim to live a much more fulfilling life than what i have been presented with.

Thank you for taking the time to read this my fellow enfjs!!! Please write back if you have anything to say.